"she believed in me when I stopped believing in myself"
Mood:  blue

"Life has a funny way of sneaking up on you when you think everythings ok and everythings going right"

not a very long lived story. thats all. back when I had tons and tons of things to say, I forgot half of them and my entries turned out rully short. Now I don't have anything to say so you can imagine the size this entry is going to be. humm koi d neuf? (thats right?) sure sure.

I asked mom if I could stay in Belgium longer (until the end July/beginning of August) ((even though the biggest reason for staying is ...no longer a reason...)) and she said yes in a round about way. As in, if I don't go on eurotour, then I can stay because that money can go towards changing my plane ticket date. As if it costs 375 Euros to change a plane ticket. I'm skeptical on that one. And I was "agressive" in the email I wrote her so now she is sad with me. :(

"Your letter was terse, and this one is terse in kind. Have you forgotten who has footed the bill for the time you've been there? Have you forgotten how much everyone here misses you? Do you care that your lilies are up? Or that gram turned 90 in December?"-mom

*learn something important- my mom is brutally honest

me: yeah, 'we broke up'
mom: he must have found a better offer.

... :)

**something else important- she was once like me:

Bunny dit :
I was like u when I was young.... I had so much love to give, and it felt sometimes like no one wanted it....
Bunny dit :
I wanted to love someone who would love me in kind
Bunny dit :
I wanted to MATTER to someone, be so important that nothing else compared
Bunny dit :
I wanted someone in my corner, who loved and appreciated me no matter what
Bunny dit :
someone who understood me like no one else could

boy do I know how that feels. :,(

so...its friday and my plans fell through for the weekend. I officially have nothing to do tonight or tomorrow. Sunday tho, for a change, I'm going to dinner with the PIETTE family. :)))

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
ok so this entry isn't a very happy one. I have the right to that non? it is my blog...

Bunny dit :
I fell out of myself by trying to be everything I was expected to be for someone else....... I got lost. You go out there and become who you want to be. If someone else wants to join you on the ride, fine. If not, you'll make it on your own


"No matter where I go, I know where I came from"